6th of Ches
It’s been a nice four days at rest here in the forest. Being here with my brother and sister and surrounded by the bustle of this freedom fighter movement is more rejuvenating than I would have thought. In truth, though, I feel a sense of safety and serenity in the knowledge that, for once, we are not alone in our fight. Even with the near-death experience that we had at the guard tower, having been sent with the backup of an informant that we know we can trust is a sigh of relief and a move in the right direction. If only we can learn how to strategize, work together more effectively in the heat of combat, having the backup of a team working with us to reach the same goal may just keep us alive and help us ultimately succeed.
I do wish Marcella were a bit more amenable to me after all this time has passed, but I suppose I can’t blame her for how she feels. Despite her animosity, I can only hope that she has still heard some of the things I tried to tell her and will think on them and someday realize that I at least haven’t tried to ruin her life.
At least I know that her heart is in the right place — if there’s anyone I can trust to take care of Sebastian, I know that it is Marcella. And that is what I need more than anything: someone who has his best interests at heart and can be always by his side through these dangerous times.
I wish it were me, but when I think of Briar, I know where my priorities have to lie. As difficult as it is to believe, my own son is far more vulnerable and in far more danger than Sebastian is at the moment. If I were to just stay here in the woods for the rest of my life, I know that I could never forgive myself.
… I just wish it weren’t so hard to leave.