He died…. again… why does it always happen to him. I feel responsible… We should have known not to fight them when we saw they had the advantage. but we fought anyway, and we lost him… to be honest we almost lost mireya as well… We shouldn’t have split up, I should have been there to protect them. that’s what this armor is fore. It’s to protect me so i can protect them. What’s worse is i let my guard down… and now I have this injury that won’t heal itself, at least not fully. I worry what the consequences will be… I pray nothing like Roy’s that is the last thing we need.
But why did all of this have to happen? Why did Egland betray us? did he betray us? he told us it would be an even fight, clearly it wasn’t. Rosa said he pointed out where everything was in the camp to the black when they attacked… but why? He also left the note for me to drink the potion… yet I still stand, and with a body that is clearly changing… Blue in my blood is not normal… I don’t know what I am supposed to think. I can’t help but be suspicious, not that it matters now that he’s dead… but what will become of me? Have i been tricked and await to die at any moment? have i survived the potions test and await new powers? I guess only time will tell.
What ever may happen, we need to focus on the next week. We need to rest, we need Rosa to rest, we could use her in the fight. we need to figure out where they are keeping everyone, and who they have. We need to find Grandmother, she will be extremely helpful in all of this…But what’s most important is saving them all… do they have ander and kaleb? do they have annalissa? tresden? my little cousins? They all must be found and saved. no exceptions. otherwise what is the point of fighting. If we can save them maybe the public will be more willing to fight back, maybe even revolt… These are all thoughts that must be discussed. and action must be taken. and fast.